How could I read your incredible messages and not symth words back on
the anvil of our commonality.
Dianne, I am absolutely appalled at the idea of cloning, but I’d rather
you’d just wave your wand over my doctor and clone him thereby having
someone( with a script pad) listen to you. I don’t get it…
I have been given permission to call ( his idea, I didn’t have to ask)
if I feel cold or slow down at all..if I feel grumpy, anything that
might indicate TO ME that I am less than normal! i.e. hypo
The idea being that we should be protected from going hypo…
why do I ask you all that question on the survey? Ever been hypo,, how
long? Because I have been told it is not good for us after the hyper
realm especially, to go hypo…and one of the sweet organs it isn’t good for
is the eyes.
Trying to think if I have a specific article that you could all
highlight and innocently carry into your docs and say….not going to
let me touch down in hypo land, right? …right doc cause like it
says here…
I mean if the doc does get gd AND TAKES CARE OF himself and goes hypo
And if he experiences what it is to be treated as you have described,it
is apparently not going to increase his compassion quota. Okay,
so your tongue got stuck in your cheek ( maybe that’s from GD?).
I mean, I howled with laughter Dianne, as I read your letter; there you
were floating over internists bequeathing this GD thing,
but it was also terrifying. ( I don’t have a wand to shake, so I was
just shaking all over)
I know this is only language and the power of emoting and all** AND MAY
TRUE CATHARSIS BE YOURS**…I trust that we all share that to even wish
this illness on another is (IN REALITY as opposed to sit in my chair or
live in my cell just tonight)unthinkable, and yet, because it is true
that such tragedies in other disease and injury realms ( like 35 blocks
from Lan’s house or the conscious spreading of aids) do occur
we must like Victor Frankl in the concentration camps say…and I wish
I had a copy to quote him, but I hope the power of it remains in this
remembrance and paraphrase…that there are inner realities that no man or circumstance
can take from us…the power of suffering to purify rather than defile
a person, our ability to chose responses to our circumstance, creatively
rather than reactively, this is authority-humanity-godliness-power
(transcend our language difficulties or differences and please pick
the semantics of your choice) that cannot be wrested from us lest that
we give it. No disease, no incompetent or ambivalent doctor, no
sneering ignorant co-worker, no failure, no disappointment, no loss
need ultimately rob us at the “essentials” and of the “essentials”.
I guess my sense that we are driven to ultimates, perhaps even penultimates
in dealing both with the primary source of trouble, the GD and then the
secondary backlash-dealing with others inadequate to outrageous responses-
at a time when our most accessible responses are at a disadvantage,
echoes what I heard Lanny saying…don’t look down and I hope I get out
of all this what I need for this life.
Jeannette
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