Lauren,
I understand what you’re going through. It helped me when I changed my patterns. I would lite up after I got home from work because I told myself “I deserved it”. Well, since I have quit smoking. I alter my routine when I get home from work. Instead of going to the patio, I go for a walk. I get on the phone and call out of state friends. I try to get home and do something different and healthy, because I deserve to be good to myself. Hang in there! The cravings and the craziness will pass.
Good luck!