The study is very interesting. Maybe many cannot identify specific
stressors which may have triggered GD, but I certainly can. Three of
the people nearest and dearest to me, my husband, my son, and my aunt
nearly died, or should have died (even our dog died) in the months
preceding the appearance of my GD. I was optimistic and still am
grateful for their survival. But now after 4 years and as many eye
surgeries I am not so optimistic. I am depressed but pessism is not the
appropriate term for what I feel. Instead I would say I have lost my
confidence, that sense of personal power to overcome by determination.
I have reached the point where I must learn to work smarter and not
harder. As far as self blame goes, I have to accept responsibility for
smoking through out the course of the eye disease. Oh well – life does
go on – although definitely viewed and experienced by all of us.
