Thank you Jeannette for caring, I guess the reason I feel so bad is because my sister is the only one in my family who I am close to,even though we are miles apart. Unlike the rest of my family she is understanding when I’m sick and of the depression that is sometimes a part of GD. She is my baby sister and I love her so much,it just hurts me not being able to share her wedding day. I know it is something that will torment me for a long time. These are the times I feel like a “failure” my sister understands yes,but I know that it hurts her to and that makes me very sad. Thank you again. Shana.