[Anonymous February 25, 1998 at 7:31 pm Post count: 93172]

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Miriam,
Sounds like you are having a rough day. Please join us on-line
this evening so we can all give you a big hug!
I know how hard it is for you, as we communicate weekly to each other.
Know that things will get better and that God is watching
over you(as is your Dad, I’m sure!).
I’d sing, “the sun will come out, tomorrow” to
you but I’d kill your ears! LOL!
Hang in there, gal!

LOVE YA,
JAN

[Anonymous February 25, 1998 at 11:16 pm Post count: 93172]

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My father died January 20th without me being able to tell him I love him. It was a long trip home to Georgia. My dad had been ill for over 5 years so my sistersd and brother and Mom were relieved he was in peace and happy. I cied and cried. I was chewed out because of my crying and told over and over that he was no longer in pain. I know that too. But they could not understand the grief and Pain I was feeling. My brother gave the Eulogy and he broke down. Then unbeknownst to me, My sister had a taped sermon dad once gave on death and dying. It was played at his funeral. My son turned to me and said, Mom, is that Grandad? My guilt of not going home alot more hit me hard. The last time Dad had seen the kids was when Micah was born, and he had baptised him. Micah turned three last week. I feel like I did a big injustice to my kids not letting them see their grandfather more. Well tomorrow is my birthday and for the first time in 41 years, I will not hear him say “Happy Birthday my Mimi”. On top of all this, I
have another stomach ulcer, My endo didn’t listen to me three weeks ago when I told him I felt I was hyper again. My last level was 1.2 It dropped from 14.9 to that level in 3 weeks, I told him my levels always drop or raise fast but he refused to retest me. He did restart my heart medicine though at a higher dose. I guess I have to start my fight all over again.The jerks are back, racing heart beat, weight loss.I’m now down to a size 10. Last year at this time I was a size 22. It’s a pity I can wear the same clothes my 13 year old son wears.

[Anonymous February 26, 1998 at 2:51 pm Post count: 93172]

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Miriam,

My heart goes out to you as well as my thoughts and prayers. I lost my dad 7 years ago while he was undergoing heart surgery. From what the doctor had said there would be no problem and his chances were excellent. I was devastated. How could this happen? God works in strange ways and always for the best. You must know Miriam that your dad knew that you loved him just as mine knew I loved him. Love is not just a word it is a smile, a thought, a deed , or an action. He knew you love him just as you knew he loved you. Not being able to say goodbye was the hardest for me.

Hope that you are feeling better soon. If you want to talk just email me. I’ll be there for you.

Marie ReeRee60@aol.com

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