[Anonymous March 21, 1997 at 3:08 pm Post count: 93172]

#1163504

I didn’t care for and was upset on what you
had to say about men,I feel that you should
be saying the men you know.

thank you, steve

[Anonymous March 21, 1997 at 5:07 pm Post count: 93172]

#1163505

Apology to Steve and any Other Men on board,

I’m mad at the one I’m with and I’m just ranting. He’s sick physically
and he won’t see a doctor and thinks a lot of my problem is that I’m
seeing doctors. He literally sleeps most of his free time. He was
not this exhausted a year ago.

Linda

[Anonymous March 21, 1997 at 6:34 pm Post count: 93172]

#1163506

My doctors thought I might have been bi-polar also. Even though you said you did not do a bunch of those bi-ploar things, I did. But once I was being treated for my Graves DZ, all that stuff stopped. My doctors now realize all that was due to my really messed up Graves DZ. The only thing now for me is now it is so hard to straighten out all I did. I owe tons of money and everyone wants it right now. Of course I also owe a ton of money for doctors due to this stupid DZ. Half my family thinks I am worthless and will never go anywhere in life now. Oh well. At least I know I am not/ was not mentally disturbed, just Graves Diseasely disturbed….

[Anonymous March 21, 1997 at 7:02 pm Post count: 93172]

#1056466

Hi Fellow Warriors,

Not really feeling much like a warrior today. My therapist seems to
think I’m a bipolar mental case because my moods change. I am not. I’ve
never been irresponsible, charged a lot of bills, or had trouble holding
a job. I have an insane (adoptive) mother who has nearly destroyed
my 7 year old daughter. She lives 2 hours away, but could show up anytime
to disrupt my life. She also owns a gun and I’m not sure that she won’t
use it on me. This is not paranoia. She’s threatened to in the past
as well as poisoning my food to put me out of my misery. Of course, that
was more than 20 years ago, the poisoning threat. The gun was more
recent.

I have a SO that’s improved somewhat, admits this is
a real disease finally. Of course, he’s a man so he doesn’t have any
real responsiblities–go to work, come home, eat dinner, go to bed.
I make all phone calls, do 90% of cleaning, all business stuff, all
planning. He gets up about 15 minutes before I do. He’s in bed an hour
or two after getting home (8 or 9). No wonder reports indicate the mentally
healthiest are married men and single women. Neither have many
resonsibilities.

I’m ranting. Of course, this is indication that I’m bi-polar. It doesn;t
mean that the meds are too much again. That would be in my head.
Of course, the doctor didn’t believe my levels would drop with 2.5mg, but
they did and my backwards T3 straigthened out. I was tolerating 5 mg.
for about 2 weeks and that started getting to me Monday, so I cut
it to 2.5 again. I tried 5 mg. again on Tuesday, but I was so nervous and
clumsy I cut it back again on Weds. and Thursday. I’ve taken 5 mg. today
because I’m going to doctor this afternoon and I want her to see what it
does to me. When too much is in my system (Tapazole), I get clumsy and
very irritable. Of course, my period is due in the next day or three, so
I think today is PMS, but that’s not acceptable. It looks physical to
my therapist, so I must be bi-polar.

Tomorrow has got to be better.

Linda

[Anonymous March 21, 1997 at 7:08 pm Post count: 93172]

#1163507

Mental Disorders…are after all just descriptions of patterns
of expressing suffering. There is no such thing as “a bi-polar”.
There are people who get very depressed and then in a desparate attempt to
defend themselves from depression ( and alot of subtle body chemistry changes)
swing into ardent manic activity. These people may express bi-polar symtoms,
or tendencies or … but first and foremost we are all people. Don’t take
on these labels or be frightened away from help that is offered at
a time of need. Day will come when you will be helping….

Families get frightened easily when loved ones, especially
young loved ones manifest problems…but it needn’t define your
future.
Don’t know if I could find the reference for you right off, it is
in the New Testement…but it says
He who is forgiven much, loves much.

If one could get this going in both directions…forgive others
and be forgiven and of course forgive yourself as well…
love, even in the face of GD and the many other chronic conditions we
face as fragile flesh. could still abound. my hope …..

Jeannette

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