I could go through a narrative of why I feel sad and lonely, but it comes down to having the scope of my life narrowed by my Graves’ illness. I worry more about some things, and other things matter more to me than they should. So today, I’m feeling sad and lonely, even though I know that the mean thing my professor did today is, in the big scheme of my life, entirely unimportant, and the other thing I’m worried about will turn out all right in the end. It’s just that I’m less independent than I used to be, since I can’t work and go to school at the same time anymore. I’m at school 7 am to 6 pm, and then I go to sleep at 8 pm. I’m dependent on other people in ways I wasn’t before. So I’m more sad when they let me down than I used to be. I used to be capable of anything — I had so much energy, no limitations. If I was disappointed in one endeavor, I had others going that would please me and make up for the disappointment. No more. I’m doing a lot less, so what used to be a minor disappointment now seems huge. But it isn’t! So,
knowing that what’s really going on is that I’m sad and lonely, I thought maybe I’d just post and get a few online hugs. I know time will pass and I’ll feel better. I like what Jake says.
I have graves and life is good.
Thanks.
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