Sunday morning. I am sitting here in tears wondering if I should even be here. It’s been 6 days since I was told I had GD.
I’ve been on the meds for 5 days. I don’t feel an improvement, I am depressed, I cry a lot and I don’t know what to expect.
I went to the Doctors for an unrelated issue, mentioned how run down I have felt, started rattling off some symptoms, and he said "let’s run some tests" A diabates test and the thyroid lab. "You have an overactive thyroid" he said on my answering machine. I guess I should feel lucky that it wasn’t diabetes? And I know other people have way worse health problems than GD, but it doesn’t help to think of that. It’s me. I am broken.
I didn’t hear back from the Doctor for almost a week. My symptoms seemed to be getting out of hand. One morning, in the bath, a chunk of hair fell out. I was hysterical. I called the Doctor crying, and within the week I was at a specialist, an endocrinologist.
Tremors, night-sweats, I feel hot ALL the time, heart racing 24/7, feeling run down and sleeping way too much, losing weight over the holidays, and the rages, broke my cellphone in half one day over a spat with a good friend. Lost a relationship this past year, was told I was being irritable and mean to him.
I just don’t know what to expect. Is popping these pills going to make it better? What else can I do?
I need to know someone like me.
