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in reply to: Help! Problems with my finger nails! #1063522

Thanks for all the response!No one in my life seems to understand how bad I really feel because they cant see anything wrong with me, I look the same, after all, so what is my problem? Well, it seems to me that everything is wrong, and it doesn’t help that I just recently had a baby and was diagnosed with Postpartum Depression. I was diagnosed in April of this year with Hyperthyroid and it seems the issue started during my pregnancy. I have an 11 year old that due to a bad first marriage with a lazy husband I was only able to nurse her for 3 months and I know it sounds crazy but, I have been sore about it ever since. I really just wanted to nurse this one and I didn’t want to be told that I couldn’t. The nurse practitioner that I saw first said absolutely no way could I nurse and take these meds, so I went to another doctor who said I could. I also spoke to the leader of our local chapter of La Leche League and we researched the latest information together and found that I can take PTU which is what my new doc had said. So, with all that in mind, I’m still not satisfied that I should nurse her and take those meds, so…. Now I want to talk with an Endocrinologist and my daughters pediatrician to really make an informed decision. She is almost 9 months old and I really only wanted to nurse her till 1 year. The problem is not formula, my first daughter thrived on formula, I think its great in some ways. Its the bond, its a special time when you are nursing your children, that is what I dont want to give up and it makes me sad. Sadness seems so intolerable to me right now and I know Im acting like a child stomping around cause Im not getting what I want. In the end I will make the right choice I just cant seem to pull it together right now.
It is nice to read other posts from people with personality changes, it helps me to know that I am not losing my mind after all. I am really terrified of all the panic attacks and heart palpitations that I’m going to have until I get into see the Endo, which wont be for at least 3-5 weeks!We dont have an endocrinologist locally or even nearby, the closet one is an hour and a half away and my nerves are too frayed for that long of a drive, so my doc is trying to set up a "tele-visit" with one of the Endo’s from UC Davis in Sacramento. I’m excited to get moving on this but it is taking a long time, ugh! Sorry that I am rambling on, my thoughts are so spontaneous and erratic! I was always so independent and now I feel like I have to have someone hold my hand for everything, especially decisions, and then I get suspicious of the person that I wanted help from in the first place, what a nightmare. So now I’m driving people away and making people crazy!!

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