I had the RDI done to make myself as close to the "normal person range" as I was trying to enlist at the time. When my informed my recruiter he said that having GD made me medically unable to join. My doctor said my levels were "a little high" but I did not require further PTU and Propranolol. After that I just stopped going (was in a rather dark place after not being able to enlist), and started doing drugs. Once I met my fiance, she helped me fight off my addiction. But after quitting my depression/aggression issues became more manic and became less consistent. I’m not physically violent, I’m told I become; cold, careless, short-fused, over-all a terrible person. I’m open to seeing a therapist and getting help anything I can do to get what I can under control. I do not want to lose her. I work two jobs at the moment (Money is kind of tight with a family of four). So I’m limited on my sleep and my relax time, and it seems like when I’m not working all I AM doing is fighting with her. Worst part is that most of the time, I am able to see myself acting bad but in the moment I can’t stop myself. I feel like a little kid sometimes.
