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in reply to: Will this get better? #1063658

Krystal,

I honestly thought I was the only person who was feeling miserable by this disease. I have absolutely no motivation or happiness for life. I did suffer from depression before, but I was always able to snap out of it. And right now I should be having the time of my life, I have great boyfriend, two great kids, an ok job, everyone in my life is healthy, but yet I have been crying because I can’t perk myself up or I cry about mistakes in the past that i have already dealt with. I ask people close to me if I have changed and they say yes, it makes me sad to know that this has affected me that much. I started taking PTU yesterday even though it is a pain in the rear I am going to stick with it and keep trying, my self pity boat left earlier this week and I got kicked off. Ha Ha. I believe we will get better and will go back to living life outside our houses. We may need to make adjustments or find ways to deal with things differently than we did before. I know venting and talking to people has helped me because talking with everyone else who hasn’t been affected by this they don’t understand the severity of this. (sometimes I don’t think the dr does as well). I can’t say anything scientifically about this disease because I just started dealing with it myself. But like I said to myself before when I was depressed or anxious I will not let it defeat me. This just a hurdle we will overcome. Thank you for reading.

Sarah

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in reply to: motivation #1063698

Thank you for the information. I just find it very hard to work, clean house, and care for my children. I sleep A LOT, and at work I feel so lousy I can hardly work. I would hate to quit my job or get fired because of this. HMMM maybe I could ask for FMLA and take some time off to get my meds correct and heal a little bit and stop stressing about how I will feel while I am at work. This is so frustrating to be this way; and not want to do anything. Is this normal?

[shale72701]

in reply to: Time #1063835

Thank you for your responses. I think after I wrote that last night it clicked ,"what the heck am I doing to myself?" I need to take care of my problems now before they turn into bigger issues. I am going to the dr.s today to get a plan of attack. I wrote down my questions and concerns so I don’t forget them. I am going to ask for referrals for an endo and a cardio. If I feel like I was swept under the carpet today I will be moving on to a new provider. I have one in mind who will be able to see me in a couple of weeks. I hate feeling lethargic and can’t accomplish anything, it is starting to affect my work and home. So thank you for letting me vent and get all of my garbage out. And sorry for being so pessimistic.(sp)

So I went to the Dr.S it did take about two hours, but I let them know what was going on. I was given an EKG which was the same as my EKG five years ago so that is a bit of relief. She has referred me to an endo and a cardio. She did let me know the endo is pretty busy so it may be a while before I can get in there, but they were going to call to see if there is something else I should do. I am going to start taking the PTU a little worried, but I think I will be ok! I am kind of proud of myself!

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in reply to: Time #1063831

Thank you for your ideas. My heartrate is about 48 bpm which I guess is fine due to that I have a 1st degree heart block. I haven’t returned back to the dr.s nor have I made an appt anywhere. I basically got very disgusted with the office when I tried to make a fu appt and then gave up all together. I know it isn’t the right choice and I am only hurting myself and my family. I am very impatient and angry and hate having to disclose my personal issues to the drs. over and over again. I just hope that I will feel good again, logically though I know I need to go in and see the dr. not taking any medicine is only going to make things worst. I try to say to myself it isn’t a big issue to be hyper, and I don’t need to go in. I am confused, I guess I am looking for someone to come with me and to guide me through this, sounds childish, but I get so emotional and frustrated I can’t grasp what needs to be done. Sorry to be a downer.

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in reply to: Time #1063828

Swelling of my legs and ankles is what brought me to the urgent care before I found I had GD. I noticed my itching came back…even after I stopped taking the atenlol. I called the dr. to make a follow up after my er visit but was referred to the consulting nurse to make that appt. I did call a couple of dr.s to see if they were taking new patients, but it was 3-4 weeks before I could be seen.

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in reply to: Time #1063824

Thank you for your responses. I feel better that I know that others are having the same issues. I found out part of my problem was using the atenolol. I ended up going to the er with a heart rate of 40bpm. Thankfully, I went because I would have continued using it and today after not taking the atenolol I haven’t been itching as bad. So I hope I have resolved that problem. I am on bed rest for four days until the medicine is out of my system which is really hard with two children.

Sarah

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