My heart goes out to you. The most important thing is that you get well so that you are a whole, strong parent for your child. And so that you can live life fully.
When we are in the stage that you are it is so hard to focus and to see things clearly. You do need to make a treatment choice. This condition does not go away. It’s been 7 years since I was diagnosed. Life post treatment is so much more manageable than life pre treatment.