Thank you sooooo much for talking the time for responding to my rambling entry earlier. Dianne, Maria you have both been thru this and I am so grateful to finally have someone to talk to who has been thru this. As I had mentioned earlier I had so much medically (from the rapid heart beat throwing off the clots) going on the Graves was put on the back burner especially whenI made the decision to have thyroid removed so quickly. I did not see an Endo for quite a while, and even then with me being a nurse I think that docs just think we know everything. I finally said something to him several months ago (endo is local, but I see special eye doc in Madison) that no one has really ever talked to me about Graves. He had his nurse give me the same old tired pamphlets, so I really have leared so much here already. I did not realize that the mental delay/fogginess was part of it….I thought I was suffering from anoxia after having so many surgeries in such a short amount of time. I was grasping at straws trying to put together these contined daily symptoms. As I have read what everybody else is suffering thru daily, it was like a light bulb went off in my head!! Now I finally know what is wrong with me, thank you, thank you. As a nurse it has been really difficult daily feeling like maybe I won’t be able to do my job much longer….I will keep hanging in there because I love what I do.
As for my appearance, it has really been hard. People I have known my entire life do not recognize me right now. I am wearing glasses while at work (hiding my eyes as best as I can) per I only need them to drive. And that is new, never had any vision problems before this. I have cried more in the past year a one half I don’t understand why I look like this, and it happened so quickly. I have become very good at hiding, I work and come home period. I do not leave the house unless I have too. I am 43 and have a 23 year old son (out of house) and 15 year old son who sees his mom in pjs more often then not. It is pathetic really when I think about it. I read all the time even though my eyes are watering and blurry that is all I have left for me. By the way I have had 4 back surgeries with hardware in the past several years as well, what a train wreck I am…..
Again Thank you for taking the time to write back to me, I know how long it takes me with all the errors now. It did not used too…
Hope to keep in touch, I see the eye doc in May and will possibly set up first surgery…..I am soooooo scared. Have had so many surgerys in the past and good lord on my eyes???!!! YIKES!!! But I want to look like me again if that is possible, and he says it is!!?? I will keep reading and feel like I finally belong somewhere. THANK YOU!!!!!! Becky
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