I have days when I catch glimpses of my old self: happy and active… Today I woke up screaming as my neck and leg muscles cramped in the same time… Simple things like putting on my seat belt or getting dressed, or even gently changing my position are becoming scary because I don’t know when will I get another spasm…
Now I am back to feeling exhausted all the time… I have marks on my legs from where I scratch, but even with calamine lotion is so bad I just feel like ripping my skin off… My GP says that he never heard of muscle cramps and that amount of itching and most likely I am putting on weight because I am getting lazy! I was in tears. Because even without exercise, which I do try to at least gently do twice a week, I have two young kids which in itself is exercise… Up and down the stairs with shopping bags and school bags, house work, pick me ups… And I totally lost my appetite so I barely eat, but I am still putting on weight… The other day my legs just buckled under me like jelly… I don’t know what to do anymore and I am getting depressed with it all…
