Looks like your current questions have all been answered, but I wanted to take my turn at saying hello!
We’ll be here for you ~ welcome to the GD/TED “club.”
Glad to have you. 
~Ski
NGDF Assistant Online Facilitator
P.S. Sorry about the emotional part ~ it’s hard for us girls to be extra weepy, I can’t imagine how YOU feel being in this position! One of the things we usually recommend is to do ONLY what is fulfilling for you at this time. Anything that is a drain on your energy is NO GOOD for your healing. So pamper yourself, whatever that means to you. You’ll be glad you did.