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I can relate to you. I also suffered with exams, group work, presentations which before hand LOVED LOVED LOVED THEM. I would volunteer to be group leader/spokes women. I gathered ideas, numbers, emails etc. Not so much anymore. I just would sit there like okay. Krystal just get through this without passing out. lol. I think where my anxiety started was having reactions to medications and since it just hasn’t subsided. I had anxiety during senior year in HS and I learned to control it and before I knew it I was fine. Its different this time. I had seizure activity with anti anxiety meds ie. Lexapro and the list goes on. So know when I get this anxiety/panic fear, i fear another seizure. Its not the typical, Im having a heart attack anxiety its am i going to have a seizure again. The anxiety I felt turned into me having partial seizure and so thats what i relate it to now. I am allergic to a lot of the seratonin dopamine releasing drugs. So medication is out of the question for me, I don’t even want to try anything that messes with chemical change AT ALLLLLLLL. I would rater deal with the tremors, jelly like, foggy mind, uneven gait than meds. Its that bad
” title=”Sad” /> I was a nursing major but it became to overwhelming when I got GD cause I kept self diagnosing myself with everything else since GD symptoms are so broad and can correlate with 1000 other syndromes, diseases etc. <<<Hopeful23>>
Hey – I should be sleeping, but wanted to respond to this thread. My anxiety has really improved. Today it’s crept back up on me – which is why I’m still awake.
” title=”Smile” />I’m not even anxious about me – my 9 year old is in a play (been doing theater since he was 5) and opening night is Friday. He messed up a little at rehearsal tonight and now is very upset and beginning to have stage-fright. He’s never been nervous before. So my reaction is to worry for him (but not WITH him, he doesn’t know I’m worrying). And I’m not even worried about how he performs, just worried about how HE feels about it. Anyway, my point is that my hands are tremoring like you wouldn’t believe. My heart was racing earlier, but has since settled.
I really believe it’s true that stress affects symptoms.
Hi Hopeful,
This is a great idea! I will be the mentor lol! As I could write the book! Speaking of books I have a fantastic book which helped me through a really rough time a few years back. Even now when the panic comes I can relate back to the teachings in this book and "float by" the panic, recognise that I won ‘t pass out and if I do I will come back round. Easy said and it doesn’t stop the panic but it helps me focus so that they don’t last as long. Its called "Self help for your nerves" by Dr Claire Weekes.
I started to have anxiety after I was attacked by 3 girls when I was 14 and I never went to school or out the house for 2 years. So it weakened the nerves and now even when I am feeling well and something happens the "old nerves" can kick in, so I can’t react like a "normal" person would. My panic was often so bad in the past I was in a book shop once while I was unwell with depression/anxiety ( prior to GD) and thought there was an earthquake but it wasn’t – it was me shaking with nerves.
Since the GD 4 years ago the anxiety has been horrific. I am now starting to be able to go out a little but I admit I am on high doses of valium to get out the front door which is not like me at all, normally I would refuse all meds like that. I am so scared I take another TS and I think the op is lurking in the back of my little overactive mind
” title=”Sad” />However, panic is always with you but you can learn to work with it and recognise the days when its safer to stay at home and tomorrow could be a better day. Or like last night when after travelling home from a 6 hour car journey and my heart was 150 at rest I started to panic and thought I was going to pass out I was ready to call an ambulance as I felt so ill, however, I went into another room put on the TV, tried to read a book , had the fan on at the highest level to keep me cool and lay with my holy water and rosary beads( lol Emily sure you understand
” title=”Wink” /> ” title=”Wink” /> ) and tried to take my mind of my heart beat, it wasn’t easy but I spoke myself through it with the help of my memory from my book mentioned above. I knew that if I was going to take really unwell then I didn’t have any control over it and made myself relax and calm down. Its funny as although I work mainly with physical rehab but obviously mental issues come in too and I help people regain their confidence after operations, anxiety etc…yet when it comes to me – all that is out the window!I would love to help people out there get through there bad times. After all you only really understand if you have walked in another mans shoes.
M xxx
I truly feel for anyone who has panic/anxiety attacks.
I am ordering it on Amazon or going to borders to look thru it…..
” title=”Smile” />Hey mommysick,
You sound as though you are super anxious today
” title=”Sad” /> Interviews on top of being unwell don’t make a good combination but I can appreciate what you are saying regarding worrying about bills etc…I used to find that driving sometimes in silence helped me calm down and put things into perspective. Hopefully by the time you come home from your interview and the adrenaline rush starts to slow down you can get the kids sorted for bed and treat yourself tonight…try to be good to yourself. Us mums often forget to do that I know I do. So the kids and hubby are all well dressed and taken care of and I am wearing the same clothes I wore when I was 20 etc….
Try to think… I can sort that out tomorrow in the house after I get a good night sleep… I find that very hard but I have had to learn and somedays I still don’t get it. Here is an example I have had to take my just washed washing out to my washing line in a message bag as I had 2 full baskets of clean washing sitting in my hall! Now that was there because on Wed I was so anxious about my pre- ax on the Thurs and then yesterday I was so washed out after the appointment so Thursdays washing was also left ( yes thats right I do have a hubby but somehow I am expected to put the washing away!). I was very anxious about it all this morning and trying to care of the kids etc… I managed to get it done but it was took a great effort
I hope after the interview I hope you come home have a hot or cold drink and tell yourself to relax…..
m xxx
Ok back from the interview. It went very well. The 45 minute drive did calm me and did great on my interview. It was with the FBI childcare so I really wanted to impressed, and I am sure I did. Still I think I will take your advice and relax a little tonight and try and get the kids to bed early. My sweet 14 yr niece is staying over and making my favorite meatloaf that she makes so well. All I will have to do is make a few sides to go with it. I might even be able to get my 11 yr old girl to do that. She is just now getting my 3 1/2 a shower (I did not even ask). Oh I have to tell you something soooo cute. Emily my 3 1/2 yr old was here in the livingroom yesterday. And I had a bad moment I was after my older too to help me by cleaning the kichen and they argued back and forth. So as we do I went into the "Crazzies". Emily my little one said so softly "Mommy its ok, calm down. I really need you to calm down mommy. " While patting my arm softly. How could you not calm down to that? I just had to share that with you all. So the next time you go into the "Crazzies" imagine my little girl with big brown eyes telling you to calm down she needs you to calm down.
” title=”Smile” />Thats an adorable story and isn’t that great that your eldest is taking care of her little sister.
” title=”Smile” /> Yes my eldest who is 4 has certainly been here before and has said some of the cutest things. He will ask me some days "You feeling aggitated?" Or if I had an appointment at the Dr he will say you going to see about your thyroid. The cutest was when I was explaining that mommy was going to hospital to make her throat better (going for the op) and that once I had the operation I would be able to go back to the swing parks with him…well weeks passed and I had an appointment with my surgeon when I came back he said is your thyroid out mummy can we go to the swing park now? Bless.
Thats the best thing to do is to hold onto those moments and cherish them
Glad the interview went well and so glad you came home, rested and had your dinner made for you!m xxx
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