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    I have read your story. You have gone through a lot. My post is long too but please do read it.

    OK … here it goes.

    You know what? I think it is time for you to get well. I think that it is time for you to think of yourself for a change and put you as a priority.

    There is so much going on in your life right now and well, the way I see it, you are going to have to decide exactly what you need to do next and do it. Can’t do everything at once. You will have to prioritize and I think your health is way up in the top of the list. Don’t you? Even if it requires to put some things on hold. I know it seems like you can’t let go of all of it. You have a lot on your shoulders and a lot of people are depending on you, right? I’m sure you think about what will happen if you stop all of it and concentrate on getting well. Well, the truth of the matter is that no one can help anyone else when they are sick … you can’t carry on the new shop, you can’t take care of your son coming back, your mom, etc, etc, … until you take care of your health. People around you are just going to have to understand that and give you the opportunity to get well or at least the opportunity to start getting well. You can’t go on ignoring how you feel (physically and mentally).

    Elf is right … “GD does happen to the take-charge people, to people who think of themselves as independent and responsible for others. It’s hard for us to shift into asking for help position, into saying “No, I can’t” position, but our bodies give up from the prolonged stress of carrying the world on our shoulders, and give up in terms of GD.”

    Stress is a big deal. It kills. It starts a chain of events and if it is not stopped, it kills. I have had my share of stress and I realize that it has played a big part in where I’m now. I realized this when I was diagnosed with Celiac and therefore I made some drastic changes to lower my stress. I even went back to school and changed careers. It is not easy putting ourselves first but we have too. Now I say “no” when I feel I have to. People might not like it but I have come to realize that when I say “no” life still goes on. Things get done one way or another and I don’t have to suffer too much for it.

    GD can kill without treatment so that is why you have to think about what you need to do next to start getting well. We have the three options as far as treatment goes and you are going to have to chose one while you can choose. Per the labs you posted, your Free T4 is elevated and your TSH is low that equals hyperthyroidism. Your body is like a computer that needs to be rebooted. It can’t go anymore without the medical treatment and the changes to slow down your physical and mental stresses.

    You have the lab #s, the Dr. has the lab #s, what you need now is the treatment. Don’t let it go on too long. You will only get worst without the treatment. Forget hypochondria, you have the labs to prove that you are sick and need help. Before I was diagnosed with Celiac I was told I was too sensitive and therefore I could feel things going on with my body but not to worry, that nothing was wrong. Nothing was wrong????!!! I only had Celiac but nothing was wrong (I’m being sarcastic here) and now I have GD (probably from all the times I ate Gluten and kept my body from the nutrients I needed). I have the labs to prove it and so do you. The Dr can’t tell me any longer that I’m “just too sensitive” and they can’t tell you that you are “hypochondriac” if your labs show that you are suffering from hyperthyroidism (signs and symptoms included).

    You mentioned your goals and the Dr.’s not wanting to help you with them. What are you goals? Tell the Dr., “these are my goals”. “This is what I know I’m doing wrong (smoking, etc) and this is what I’m doing to correct it.” If you have stopped smoking, tell the Dr. about it. Let the Dr. know you are doing what you need to do on your part and let him know your goals and that you need him/her to help you accomplish them. You have to spell them out for them because otherwise they will not know. And remember, you have to make sure that the goals are thought out taking into consideration the 3 options you have for treating GD. I wish we had more options. Believe me …. I’m currently struggling with the same liver enzyme thoughts you have and seriously considering the other 2 options. I’m afraid of RAI and surgery too but I’m even more afraid of dying.

    There is just so much we can take as individuals and when we are sick we can take even less and we have to realize that. You are your own advocate on this. If you let go of the strings of the things that can help you get well, everyone around you will too.

    You are a fighter. You have gone through a lot and are still here to tell us about it. All the strength you have managed to acquire in the past to help yourself be here today and also help others and do everything that you do, all that strength, you need to find it again now for you … to help you get well. You will need to prioritize and use that strength and use it accordingly. You might find yourself being able to use what you got only to get well but in the long run it will be worth it. You will have to tell yourself that you will have to do things that you don’t want to do but that you have to do … like take your medication (which ever treatment you choose), stop smoking, reduce stress, etc.

    Is there a women’s group in your area that might be able to help you out? Or be a support group? You can always come here. You have us here to brainstorm, get ideas, share our experiences … you are not alone but a women’s group in your area would be of great help.

    Thank you for sharing your story. It feels good sharing and knowing that you are not alone. You are a smart woman and you can do what you need to do to get control of the situation and do what you need to do to get well.

    Please keep us posted.

    Wishing you health, peace, and happiness,
    Caro :)