Welcome.
I totally feel your pain and I too suffer from extreme anxiety. We call it Graves Rage at time…I thought I would harm a few folks before I began treatment, including my doctors who pooh pooh’d my anxiety as excessive worry and stress. I hate the thinning hair, the weight gain, the rapid heart beat, etc. I wish I had the answer as to why or how we are the chosen ones for this horrible disease, but alas, I haven’t a clue. I am just glad we are in the 21st century and there are various treatments, along with support boards, and specialist so we can get the physical and MENTAL help we need.
If my mind isn’t right, my body will follow. I cannot believe these scientist (docs) do not believe in the metaphysical connection. I trust their expertise but it is disheartening at times. I am glad we also have a ton of endos and surgeons to chose from also.
I will pray for your recovery.