Thanks Jody. I am doing some stuff with a naturopath, and it
is having a good effect, I guess it’s just not good enough.
I am still waffling but probably closer to seeing an MD.
It seems to depend on the moment. As you pointed out, it’s hard
to acknowledge being sick when, for the most part I feel
better than I ever have; at least it SEEMS better. My spuse
has also kind of leaned on me about it so I guess I have
lost my support for doing nothing. If I’m going to
continue to avoid an MD I guess I will be doing it
alone. I just hate the way they think, that patronizing attitude
like I haven’t done any research, am completely
stupid and will blindly do whatever they say without
question. I dread going through that whole scene.
The NDs I’ve met have all been great, like human even.
The MDs have all, with one exception, been $#%@s.
It’s like I used to go to the dentist
and absolutely refuse novocaine. I’d had some really bad
experiences with it as a kid. I’d rather have the pain
than go through it again. This is kind of the same I
guess, anything to avoid an MD unless he or she is recommended
by someone I know. I guess the ND can’t, or doesn’t know any endos
and is sending me first to a family medicine doc to
get the referral to an endo. Talk about wasting time.
Of course it does absolutely nothing for my sense of security.
Thanks, I’ll keep talking to you guys. Just call me chicken.