[marshlakemom]

#1019022

Hi All

Just a rant !! I had a major meltdown tonight. I was in the middle of downloading a bunch of updates on my laptop this morning, had gluten free bread rising on the counter, washing machine going, yaddy yaddy, and the power went off. I thought oh crap, hope it comes on soon, as this bread is almost ready to go into the oven. Well 8 hours later, and my bread in the garbage, the power came on. In the meantime,my
hubby was outside working all day, and when he came in I had a major meltdown. Talk about a rage…..mad because the power was still off, my bread was ruined and my clothes sitting in a tub of water for 8 hours, a large chicken thawed out and no where to cook it. (Didn’t think of the BBQ….thought of that after the rage…lol) No phone of course, so had no idea what the situation was with the power. We live out in the country.

Anyway if you could have seen me you would have gone out and got a straight jacket and took me away. I couldn’t stop the ranting and raging, all directed at my husband, who of course thinks I have just lost my marbles. But once he gets into the argument then all heck breaks loose. I ended up on my bed crying out loud like a teenager with a broken heart. (Funny I can laugh at it now, but not at the time)

Anyway he ended up telling me that I shouldn’t take what I read on these sites to heart, that not everybody’s prognoses is the same, and that I should take everything with a grain of salt. He said he couldn’t figure out why I was screaming over the power outage, and asked me why I was being such an idiot, and acting the way I was. I told him it wasn’t me acting this way, but the disease. Of course he just shook his head.

I think what is happening is that I’m two weeks into my RAI treatment and I’m off the charts emotionally. I read that this is quite normal. I’m so looking forward to feeling better again, getting some quality sleep, etc. Spouses just don’t understand sometimes what it is like to go with such little sleep for such long periods of times. They still expect us to carry on as though nothing is wrong.

My legs or very sore at night, and I ache all over…..on top of not being able to settle and go to sleep. My brain fog is awful as well….in a cloud 24/7… Guess I will try the banana trick tonight and some stretching.

Heaven help me ( my hubby???) if the power goes out again tomorrow. He even suggested we go into town for supper…..and even that wasn’t good enough for me.

On a positive note: I’ve noticed my hot spells (flashes) have decreased considerably since having the RAI treatment, so something must be happening.

GEESH……..

Deb

[Bobbi]

#1068534

I am sorry you had such a bad day.

Could it be that the power going out was a bit too much like getting Graves? In other words, it was one more thing that you could not control, taking over your life and wrecking things? It’s just a thought.

We do get well again, Deb. It takes some time for the body to heal. In the mean time, if you can cut yourself some slack — even a wee bit — you might find the process less frustrating. Most of us tend to be Type A people — doing, doing, doing. But while we go through RAI and the healing process, our bodies need us to relax a bit. Melt downs are often brought about because we are doing more than our bodies can bear.

Wishing you a better day today,

[kit1960]

#1068535

Sorry to hear about your meltdown. I have them too. People who do not have GD or any other form of thyroid disease do not understand what it’s like. Since being diagnosed three years ago, my two sisters have been tested for thyroid disorders. One has Hashimoto’s and the other had a non-cancerous node removed. They didn’t understand my rantings before I was diagnosed with GD, but now they certainly do. My one sister and her two children live with me (the one with the Hashimoto’s), and she’s very helpful with "letting me know" when she thinks my levels are a bit "off". She’ll tell me when I’m having mood swings, tremors, sleeping too much or too little, etc. Maybe you could ask your husband to read the posts on here with you so he will have a better understanding of what you are living with. I had the RAI-131 done shortly after I was diagnosed; it took a good three months before I started to feel better. The issue with GD is that if the Synthroid (that’s what I take, as the levothyroxine did not work on me) is that the dosage has to be exact. Another great source of information on the internet is http://www.mayoclinic.com. Maybe your husband can do some research on that site as well. Dont’ worry about the meltdowns. They are normal with GD. Two week ago, I was ready to give up and apply for disability; today I feel a little better and am looking forward to going back to work next week. That’s part of the mood swings. Keep reading/posting on this site. We’re all in this fight together and truly support one another. Hope you are having a better day today and that the lights stayed on.

Kit ” title=”Very Happy” />

[marshlakemom]

#1068536

Thanks Kit and Bobbi:

I took an imovane(sleep med), my banana and did some strecthing. Seemed to help a lot, woke up several times but was able to fall back to sleep. Went to bed at 11:00 p.m., got up and 8:45 a.m., so that is truly good for me. Feel more thick in the head than normal, but I contribute that to the imovane. Imovane seems to work well for me, but I’m down to one tablet, and not sure my doc will prescribe anymore as they are addictive. I think I would rather deal with the addiction issue later, and get sleep now while going through this transition from hyper to hypo…which then I presume all I will want to to is sleep. What a crazy illness.

Thanks again.

Deb

(p.s. Power is still on) ” title=”Very Happy” />

[RhondaG4]

#1068537

Deb,
Sorry to hear about your meltdown. I have them also, but have learned somewhat how to control them a little. Going to your room for an adult "time out" is a good way too. I like to have my 5 minute temper tantrums. I just have to do them quietly so my 8 yr old and 2yr old don’t hear me. If they have tantrums I can’t very well help them stop theirs if I’m setting the example. It does give me a sense of why they have theirs tho. I’m an adult and understand what is going on around me and why, they don’t have that ability.

I hope things settle for you soon. I’ve learned a good phrase to use when I start feeling it to build…."It’s all Gravy" Sometimes stops them before they start if I can just throw my hands up in the air, and realize I can’t do all that I want to do right now. I’ll even send myself in for a nap with the 2 year old, due to not sleeping so well at night. I kinda look at it like I did when they were babies, my body is still healing. Take care Rhonda

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